What i'm not.

..would be all the things you want me to be.

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o ^ o.. just a quick sketch. _{..ima scrap this later..}

<warrningggg there's a rant up ahead. if you don't wanna read about my problems then i suggest you don't c:.. >

had a fight with my parents.
after the fight.. i noticed that,
whenever i try to do something that seemed normal to me, and that i liked, they would say that im weird and that people would think that im strange. they think that i'd embarrass them.. (for example, they think people will laugh at you if you wear a jacket during the spring.)

you know how i love to draw? i want to draw alot more when im older. i want to grow up and become a better artist. just like most people on dA. my mom thinks thats a ridiculous job and that it doesn't make money. i think..that its makes ENOUGH money. she wants me to be some kind of doctor or dentist like my sister but i don't like to touch people i dont know much. let alone their insides.

they see me as a person who has no friends and be's a good child and stays home all day. i know that cause they say i'm being the good child for not having friends whenever they yell at my lil sister for going out so long. this goes especially too my dad. who thinks that im a perfect and super smart person. and who also snaps over me talking back.

lately i've been pissed off, cause.. you know.. i have to stay home due to injury. ( pissssst im healed now yeeeey :'D but im still pissed off.) i've been talking back alot and became more violent and bossy towards my family. o ^ o; anddd im so mad today cause yesterday my dad gave my dog to someone at walmart without permission, (i was crying all day..) and today i was ignoring him. he came in and started to tease me, make fun of me and lecture me about things that i already know. so i punched him.

after all that i sat in a pitch dark room crying, thinking and drawing this on my laptop.. ( which is what i usually do to vent but i never really post or save them o ^ o. )


to those of you who don't know:
i cry whenever i'm yelled at seriously,
i cry right after i have a fight with someone (its cause during the fight, i feel very afraid )
i am NOT someone who won't get mad if you did something that would make anyone pissed off. (which apparently, alot of people think.)

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gosh i can't wait ti'll i move out =____=....

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to everyone who made it to the end:

OMFG. IM SORRY I MADE YOU READ SUCH THINGS. NFLSANVASBNVK. /slams face onto my keyboard/

ANDDD ANDD it may seem like i'm writting this for the attention, but what i really want is comfort, sooo... can you just leave me alone and let me have it? ( to those haters who like making people feel bad. )